One of the things I love about yogasana practice is what mister Iyengar clearly says: “I know the postures from yesterday but today I become a beginner.”
This is a huge challenge.
I like to think that what happens on my yoga mat is a reflex of the things that are happening outside of it. I feel it on the good things and also when a challenge appears.
The challenge of feeling like a beginner is important for me.
What I´ve learn through my yogasana practice is that, everyday I am dealing with a new version of myself. Everything changes constantly and if I forget about it, stagnates my practice immediately.
I love those days when I feel clean, fresh and new not only after the practice but before.
Those days when I am open to the adventure that I can see ahead of me and when, even though I know how to begin, I never know how it will end.
I love when I feel like I am open to find new ways to approach to the “problems” that the practice puts in front of me and that, instead of taking the regular way, I allow my self to experiment and create new points of view. I love when I feel creative. Makes me feel that I am growing.
One of the goals of the yoga practice is to go beyond our egos and, even though I am crushing with my ego constantly, I like to think that, when I feel inspire and creative I am going further in my experience of myself re defining my own limits because, rather than undergo regular mental processes -that do nothing but to strengthen the ego- I can find a new way of dealing with myself, my “problems” and my experience.
It´s beautiful because keeps me humble in front of the beauty and it´s not only my mind that opens, it is my body and my heart also.
I said this already: Dreams are very important for me.
One night when I was a kid, my brother Sebastian was taking care of me and when I was about to fall asleep he said to me:
-You know that some people say that they can prepare themselves for their dreams?… For example: What is your favorite game?
-I like to go to the park and get into the swings.
-So maybe, if at the moment before you go to sleep, you think a lot about swings and how happy they make you feel, you will be able to have a beautiful dream about them tonight!
I remember myself imagining swings but I didn´t dream about them that night. Despite that, the only idea that some people were able to “control” or understand better their own dreams absolutely fascinated me.
Some years after that, I “studied” my own dreams for three or four years and, from that experience, I can say that there are different types of dreams. Here is my theory:
There are some dreams that doesn´t mean anything: dreams where you see the people that you saw that day, when you see yourself doing the things you did that day. Nothing important.
There are some other dreams that always return; in my case I have a recurring nightmare: I always dream that I´m teaching a class and then, suddenly, I lose my voice. It´s always very stressful but, since I´ve dreaming about this for years, every time that happens now, I ask myself if I´m dreaming and… I always am.
There are some premonitory dreams. In my case, these always come to me as awesome déjà vus.
And, finally, there are those dreams that are more than dreams. You feel them like messages that are coming here to tell you something IMPORTANT. Messages that you can´t ignore. In my case, these dreams are always FULL of amazing symbolic things and characters. Full of amazing sensations, colors and in the morning when I wake up, I always feel like I never went to sleep. It feels like going to another place. I have had five or six dreams like these in my life.
Thanks to a dream I decided to become a yoga instructor:
I dreamt that I was walking outside a building that looked like an art gallery, It was all white and with huge windows. The tree leaves were somewhere between yellow and red. It was autumn. But it was a warm day.
I entered the building and there was a big room full of people. Everyone was there to take a yoga class: I didn´t like the sensation of being in that room; I didn´t like the people there so I moved to a corner where I found space for myself. This corner was in front of a big window and I could clearly see a tree full of red leaves in front of me.
At the moment I started my yoga practice all the people disappeared.
I was by myself in a huge space, practicing in front of this tree.
I was doing Vrksasana, the Tree pose (this can sound funny but today is the first time I see a connection between the tree that I was looking and the tree that I was practicing).
I was standing on my left leg, with my arms over the head in Urdhva Namaskarasana when, suddenly, I realized that there was someone in front of me.
It was a Ninja.
Totally covered with her black outfit I could see in her eyes that she was a woman.
I was standing in my asana the whole time, I wasn´t afraid.
She bended down in front of me and she took her saber of her back and it happened that it wasn´t a weapon, it was a big rounded paintbrush full of Indian ink. With this paintbrush, she began to draw something in front of my feet.
It was a big OM symbol.
I went out of my posture slowly. I was deeply moved. Very humbly, she offered me her paintbrush. Very humbly, I moved forward to receive it.
I took the paintbrush in my hand and when I look at it, I saw it transforming into a beautiful silver dagger.
Last night I dreamt that I was in Rishikesh with my lovely friends Rebeca and Valeska. We were walking on the crazy streets close to the Ganges river. We were happy! The city was full of life and we walked there enjoying each other and everything around us. We walked until the sun came down over the horizon…
Suddenly, many planes started to flight over the city. It was noisy and everyone became alert. From the airplanes small bombs began to drop. Thousands of them.
In the earth, there was no more than half a meter between two bombs… It was full of them, there was nowhere to run.
Silence captured all.
“Wow, this is crazy. I will die with my friends in a bombing in Rishikesh”. I thought.
Finally, the bombs began to explode.
And they were no bombs, THEY WERE FIREWORKS!
Dreams are very important for me.
I wrote my dreams for about two years “training” myself to remember and analyze them. All of this that I´m living now started because of a dream: I decided to leave university and find a good yoga teacher training after an amazing dream I had.
During the last year I haven´t dream so much and for me that was sad. At the same time, inside of me, I knew that dreams would return… Last night´s dream was perfect.
There are many things that look like bombs in my life right now. I feel threatened.
I have the feeling that this can be like the work you have to do in a mine. There´s no other choice:
I will detonate all the bombs to find that treasure hidden inside.
If there is one thing I´ve learnt during these months is that I have to relax.
I mean, I thought I was a kind of relaxed person already but the truth is that, when we talk about losing control, my (re)action is similar to an electric cat.
Yoga helps, oh yes.
Meditation helps, FOR SURE.
But, sometimes, during the day (while you´re not doing yoga or meditation) it´s really difficult to stay in tuned with the calm feeling.
A group of scientists, sound therapists and the British band Marconi Union compiled a song that is the most relaxing tune ever.
Much more relaxed than a cup of tea, walk or a massage. Really?
Something called “entrainment” happen in a very deep level while you are listening to the song.
Entrainment means that your heart rhythm and brainwaves, synchronized with the continuous rhythm of 60 BPM of the song giving you a calm that not even Coldplay, Café del Mar or even Mozart can give you.
Yes, the study tried other songs but the result wasn´t that good.
I listened the Marconi Union song and it was awesome. I was writing an email, doing simple things, listening to it and I loved it, it was the perfect opportunity to meet your inner self in the middle of the day. Now it will be on my track list of the week.