Transform yourself and eliminate the bullshit :)


Finding yoga was, for me, the beginning of a transformation that continues until today. Even though I was pretty young, since the first moment I knew I found something significant. At the same time, I knew it needed time, practice and patience to grow up. But the seed was already in my heart.

In a slow rhythm, my practice was something that had this “in crescendo” process. Every day was longer, deeper or more intense.

I don´t know when it happened that the practice started to be a moment of deep connection with myself. I mean it´s not the same type of connection you get during a yoga class or after savasana… It´s something that goes beyond that and that now, after 11 years of practice I can see like a continuous “observing myself transforming” mode.

Observing myself made me feel bad sensations sometimes: I´m not a super self confident kind of person, I have a lot of problems finding the limit between “following the flow” and “going for it” type of attitude, I sometimes just don´t know what I want.

In the other hand, in that observation I, somehow, learnt how to accept myself without many judgments, being aware of my reactions and changes, knowing that them were there teaching me much more about myself than any verbal explanation.

The other day I saw a movie called Riding giants. The movie it´s about big/giant waves surfer and the evolution of the sport since mid ’50s until now.

The movie is about a passion that goes beyond words, a passion for doing something that not just makes you happy but gives meaning to the fact of being alive (or dead).

It´s not rational at all. It´s something that it´s there in your guts or not.

Sometimes something happens in life: Maybe you had an accident, lost your job or someone you loved. Maybe you found a new practice or routine that makes you feel better. Sometimes there´s a breaking point that makes your life upside down and it´s not easy to discover that this is an opportunity to transform yourself. Sometimes its something dramatic, sometimes it comes in waves.

In the movie, Mark Renneker (who is a surfer and a doctor working with cancer patients), said something that touched my heart.

He said: “One of the things I love a about my work as a physician (…) is to see what often takes place which is transformation, they just begin to sort of eliminate the bullshit and they begin to actually live, almost for the first time. Those kinds of life changing events can come from illness, they can come from revelation, they can come for me, in a way, from big wave surfing.”

Eliminating the bullshit is the only way we have to make ourselves lighter. And I think it´s easy to realize that it´s full of bullshit everywhere but most of it, it´s in our heads. Distrust, taboos, the fear of change, our own mental square structures and all the things that are there, stopping us from doing what we want to do.

We can do it in the way we want, Dr. Rekenner found surf, I found yoga but I´m finding new things every day: The sunlight trough my window or the smile of a kid, the moving tail of a dog, the sound of my favorite song or being able to touch the skin of the people I love… I use all of those things as everyday reminders.

You have to have something inside if you want to start to empty yourself. And yes, even though we think there´s nothing, there is always something. No-thing it is Some-thing.

I don´t know what´s the meaning of life. I don´t even know if it has any sense being standing on two legs in this planet moving in the corner of the galaxy but there´s one thing that feels real for me and that it´s this voice in my head telling me: Don´t be afraid, remove the bullshit, make the package lighter and try to find the answers for the questions that you have in your heart.

All the rest will come.


Yoga as an Olympic Sport?


I have been discovering so many things during the last months.

This blog is talking a lot about yoga but also, about where yoga takes you: physically, mentally and spiritually. And the conclusion, if there is one, is:

Isn´t all just the same?

Isn´t all just my body-mind-spirit mixed together, trying to find some certainty in the ocean of uncertainty that it´s this moment, life?

Here it´s the link for an article I wrote for elephant journal about Yoga as an Olympic sport. The idea it´s has been around for a while now…

So, what do you think? 🙂

Mens sana in corpore sano (part II)

During the last months I have been meeting a lot of people that doesn´t practice yoga at all and, many of them are athletes or have a strong passion for climbing, running or skiing. Meeting them have been really inspiring for me because I have seen that behind the physical discipline that any sport requires, we can find a lot of really interesting points of view about life, mind and existence.

I wrote a post about this a few weeks ago and today, thanks to elephant journal, I found this video where Sakyong Mipham –a Buddhist lama and marathon runner- talks about the connection between body-mind and awareness.

Maybe for some of you the connection it’s obvious. If this is the case, I encourage you to analyze what hides behind obvious, it can be interesting. All of this, at least for me, has been a really interesting discovery. J


Mens sana in corpore sano or Love your body.


I was reading Light on Life and I found this: “On the spiritual path, you must keep your body as healthy as possible”.

Guruji´s words made me think about the Tao Te Ching, where Lao Tzu says:

What do you mean by “Accept misfortune as the human condition”?

Misfortune comes from having a body.

Without a body, how could be there misfortune?

Surrender yourself humbly; then you can be trusted to care for all things.

Love the world as your own self; then you can truly care for all things.

My boyfriend is a skier. When I met him I thought that he was some kind of weird and amazing monk of the mountains. He has a really singular point of view about life and -if I keep the fact that I love him apart-, his way of living its actually, pretty special and deep.

I am a yoga practitioner, not an athlete. I don´t think of my practice as “training”. I don´t want to develop better or more difficult asanas because I want to have a perfect body, if I want to become better its because of something different.

In yoga we use our bodies as a tool to go deeper into ourselves. Regardless the style of yoga we practice, we use our muscles, tissues, bones, joints, skin and cells to investigate ourselves, our origins, our goals… The practice gives our lives a new and deeper sense.

During these months I have learned that there are plenty of athletes doing amazing things with their bodies, that actually have a really spiritual point of view about life. They are not “yogis” but they have been there, studying their bodies, their reactions, going beyond their fears, developing discipline and taking care of themselves in a special way. In some way they have been there learning how to go beyond everything we know with the only tool we have. They have been there loving “themselves” facing -internally and externally- the darkness and the light, the loneliness, the hope, the strength… in two words facing THEIR MIND. Because if you want to be a really good athlete –and a very good yogi- you have to learn how to deal with your mind, otherwise you will be playing games –mind games- all the time.

Of course there are plenty of superficial yogis –under some eyes probably I am one of those- and also maybe, there are plenty of athletes that are doing what they do in a shallow way. But, for me, it has been something really beautiful to discover the connection between things that, at first sight, seemed to be apart.

I don´t have the answer for anything, but I have a body that can lead me to know my own mysteries. And probably, if I take care of my body and learn how to treat it with respect and love, my mind will open to see life with different eyes. Eyes that beautifully, aren´t physical anymore.